Law

We constantly drive around thinking that the rules of the road are acceptable and when we get into an accident we go through the hassle and haggle of trying to justify what happened and if it comes down to it we go to court and there we stand and the judge listens to our case and gives the verdict. It seems to me like we accept the rules given by our government but when it comes down to Gods rules and commands we seem to think that no one is looking.

Slowly but surely I have found Gods Law to be perfect but not from some wise person telling me but from my own arrogant approach of trail and error. If you tell someone the ten commandments supposedly the laws are written on their hearts, and when they hear it they will feel convicted. But is that the Goal to make a person feel convicted, probably not. I noticed that it is very unencouraging when a person just tells you what you are doing wrong most people are well aware but if they are not the laws are a good place to start. Although it may be loving in a tough love way it seems to get me down and get me trapped in all the things I do wrong which when boiled down to where my heart is at, is almost always. I was told to do what other people have done to me that I liked. I like it when people don't constantly strike me with criticism and do the opposite the accept me and encourage the things that I do that are good. This I like. I was once told that if something is good then pay attention to it, later I found out that it was from the Bible Philippians 4:8. Gods law is good in fact its too good, I think that's the point, no one can fallow his laws, especially in their heart Jesus tells us. Ever since I read in proverbs where it says meditate on the law day and night I have been trying to think about where my heart is according to the law day and night and surprisingly its not where I think it could be. I have beat myself up for this but some wise folk that I know reminded me that we can not keep the laws they are too perfect too good that is why we need Jesus and the holy spirit Prayer and Worship to help aim us toward perfection and walk on a desirable path. When I meditate on the laws they can get me down and then the new covenant that Jesus calls us to be in is even more difficult because it is not only our actions but our hearts. I heard a preacher once say that if you look at the 10 commandments you will basically be looking at the new covenant, the old law was perfect back then, Jesus came to fulfill the law not make new laws like the Pharisees. The new covenant is the same just without needing to sacrifice animals for our sins since Jesus came as the supreme sacrifice. Gods law is good and therefore worth looking at day and night like King David said. What comes from the heart goes to the heart and I think his Son was given to us from his heart so he could be in ours. I think if you ask anyone if they can claim they have kept all of the 10 commandments they will surly say no if you ask a Christian I think they would say i am trying with Gods help. Ultimately the law pushes us back into the boundary of freedom that god ordained for us to exist in. When we disobey the law we get a ticket and go to court and when found guilty, pay the consequences and repent or change and go back to not breaking the law. The Law Moses delivered is even so perfect in every way every day I have noticed meditating on it that it is the biggest push for me to understand God with all of my heart mind and and soul because his love for you and me is so perfect and so huge that it keeps me consistently in awe and baffled how good it really is. Every Christian is a hypocrite not a single one of them can keep the laws that is why we hang so close to our faith in Jesus. In this massive croud of people we find ourselves without direction, seeking direction by fallowing the law or covenant leads us to Jesus and then he helps us find our safe boundary of true freedom that God has made for us in our fallen condition.

Nothing can be so amusingly arrogant as a young man who has just discovered an old idea and thinks it is his own.
- Sidney J. Harris

Consequence

Con se quence
1.the effect, result, or outcome of something occurring earlier: The accident was the consequence of reckless driving.

I have had trouble with my words lately but this one seems to be at the top of the list. God does not promise that he will take away the consequence of our sins he just says that he will forgive them. This is a very hard truth for me to swallow. I have been thinking about it for many days now. Over and over I keep thinking why won't God take away the consequence as well? If I truly am sorry and I truly repent, I feel the peace of the forgiveness of sin and then in some form or another I have to get ready for the consequence. It is interesting how God uses these consequences justly and perfectly to bring us back into relationship with him. For example if you sin and ask for forgiveness repent and then become sick because of the particular sin then you seek God to save you from suffering. Suffering is looked at by authors like Paul as an accomplishment. Its weird but I can see how Getting through a time of suffering caused by a consequence could feel like an accomplishment because now you will be closer to God. Yet that does not mean go out and sin and you will get closer to God. I have realized that I have committed every sin out there at least in my heart. Now it seems like it is a slow processes of figuring out what sins I have committed or what sins I am committing and repenting and then, going through the suffering of the consequence thus bringing me to my knees and bringing me closer to God by depending on him through the suffering. We can all chose to end the suffering in some instances or prolong it but I think a way to really mature in our faith is to face the suffering head on as if it were the race and at the end there is feeling of an accomplishment. This is one of the Biggest Bottlenecks to Jesus I have found yet.

Acceptance

This has been a very important word lately. It is so amazing how we have this pull for acceptance towards God and towards people. You can almost trace your friends and your families passions and interests to certain family members especially Men and Dads. No doubt the Mothers have a massive equal influence but it seems to me that more often than not Moms are supportive and they don't push us in to specific corners as much as fathers do. I could be wrong but women are much more supportive and forgiving and there for the sense of Acceptance seems easier to attain, where as with Fathers they seem to be a little more goal oriented as men are and therefore more directional in areas of Acceptance. Not a father I can not accurately state what I feel but this is what I see and think when I look out to the world. Its interesting to explore all of the different aspects of this whole thing and how even later on with every relationship including God. How do you know you are accepted by God? How do you know what you are doing is acceptable? Typically we see God as we knew our fathers to be, and then somehow transition to fully believing God is our true creator and father. Yes in the Bible it tells us what a sin is and once our sins are forgiven then we still seek the acceptance and approval for what we do in life. I hear pastors talk about how one of the most common questions asked is "what should I do for a Job" we want what we do to be acceptable to God. I think Typically we make x amount of money and our friends and family praise us and Accept us but is this really acceptable from God? I think ultimately no matter who you are you want that Acceptance from your peers and from your family and closest loves ones, it is hard to understand that from God but when you do something that feels so right to do and then you see the abundance of "good fruit" from it then it feels like there is a divine acceptance along with joy and a peace at heart. We seem to be in this life of trial and error, acceptable to people but not by God and vise versa. This is confusing cause you may think the good fruit of the situation is whether it is number of children you have or how massive your bank account is or how many gardens you have. But I think the real treasures are unseen and that stuff is very much a part of this world I think Joel Olsteen would say you have been blessed. And sure it might feel like a blessing at first but many of the tangible things in this world can draw you away from God. I like to ask myself am I doing what I am doing because all of these people accept me this way and therefore it is comfortable. I don't know I really don't but it is amazing to see all of the things people do and say just to get people to agree with them and gain some acceptance. I think everyone ends up wanting to understand how God accepts us and why. You can never seem to get enough from people. This seems like a never ending battle, maybe just for me but I think there are others out there who try to understand this acceptance that is just sitting there waiting for use to hold on to it.

Getting used to Grace

This has been on my mind for some time now and I just listened to a Sermon that talks about character development with children. We think that we deserve Grace "anything given to you by God that you don't deserve." Pride says "I deserve ______" I get so used to people being graceful to me and around us that I start to take it for granted. This is always shown by the classic girl who is spoiled by Dady and she gets everything she wants. She is so used to her Dads graceful giving that she gets used to it and eventually feels like she deserves it. I think this is so apparent in the rich and poor extremes. With the poor beggars on the street, some think they deserve your money. They get so used to people graciously giving them their hard earned money that begin to feel like it is expected and eventually that they deserve it. The enemy is clever in this way of turning Grace in to Pride. Its so close to a good thing but just a little twisted. I think this is really relevant when People raise their children. Its a hard thing because you want to give your kids everything but you have to raise them in this world not in the garden I think if we were in the Garden that would be fine to give them everything but since they live in a world of sin ruled by the enemy you have to constantly remind them of what the difference is and raise them accordingly. I think God Raises us in this way but perfectly, not in the Garden but in this world, he even raises us knowing what sins we are more susceptible to than others and with those in mind he shows us the way. I think this is the reason life seems to find a new beginning because over and over again we find the Grace that we got use to, the grace we distorted and God revels it to us with a fresh new pair of eyes. But only after we come to him. The bottle neck here seems to be the constant attack of the idea that "I derserve ______ " this will only separate us. More later as this thought is still developing.

Get that Faith out of the way!

To Be or Not to Be That is the question?

Be on Purpose. New developing thought I will update soon.

Reassurance in God

I think the ultimate reassurance comes from God but in no way that you can pin point and if you could you could never actually prove it was God. Hence, faith falls into place. This is somewhat frustrating at first because you never know if what you are experiencing is what everyone else is experiencing so time and time again we ask "is this so?" "Do you see me this way?" even if the person voiced exactly what you wanted you know deep down that they are only a person and can't truly define you because of their lack of perfection and cognitive knowledge of knowing how everyone in the world is compared to you. Please don't be confused with the context in which I am talking about here. I am talking about reassurance about something your are worried about. Not petty reassurance like "do I look good" or something trivial. More like sicknesses and personality types and who knows I have yet to discover all the ways this can manifest it self in a negative light. But it seems to be an issue of lack of faith and trust. I know many things come down to this but that is the bottleneck. If you do find out something is wrong maybe get second opinions not endless months of reassurance. I think bassed on the Linden method this is a very wise way to think and to live. Ultimately you can never get enough reassurance, so deep inside you must be selfishly seeking attention in some way that helps feed your thoughts about being insecure in some area in your life. I think I have found this to be an evil that can lead to many bad things and can only develop with many different fears, that could eventually turn into phobias and anxiety and eventually into depression. You would naturally think that telling people and getting this reassurance would be good and natural and I think it is, unless you take it to an extreme. So like anything else there is a balance and this balance is some how made by Gods divine abilities to communicate with us and set us back on track. Its funny when you think about a guy or a girl when they are trying to get to know each other and they both seek reassurance over and over and over again, its always annoying to the witnesses around but the individual just can't seem to feel the assurance. If you think about it you know people like this and you know or wish they would just believe and have faith that the other individual likes them and move on! instead of constantly seeking this reassurance. Reassurance seems to be a journey off the path out of the way to find knowledge which really isn't there. This, I am learning won't help you in faith or understanding. Thus we must trust and have Faith and find our reassurance in God.