Acceptance

This has been a very important word lately. It is so amazing how we have this pull for acceptance towards God and towards people. You can almost trace your friends and your families passions and interests to certain family members especially Men and Dads. No doubt the Mothers have a massive equal influence but it seems to me that more often than not Moms are supportive and they don't push us in to specific corners as much as fathers do. I could be wrong but women are much more supportive and forgiving and there for the sense of Acceptance seems easier to attain, where as with Fathers they seem to be a little more goal oriented as men are and therefore more directional in areas of Acceptance. Not a father I can not accurately state what I feel but this is what I see and think when I look out to the world. Its interesting to explore all of the different aspects of this whole thing and how even later on with every relationship including God. How do you know you are accepted by God? How do you know what you are doing is acceptable? Typically we see God as we knew our fathers to be, and then somehow transition to fully believing God is our true creator and father. Yes in the Bible it tells us what a sin is and once our sins are forgiven then we still seek the acceptance and approval for what we do in life. I hear pastors talk about how one of the most common questions asked is "what should I do for a Job" we want what we do to be acceptable to God. I think Typically we make x amount of money and our friends and family praise us and Accept us but is this really acceptable from God? I think ultimately no matter who you are you want that Acceptance from your peers and from your family and closest loves ones, it is hard to understand that from God but when you do something that feels so right to do and then you see the abundance of "good fruit" from it then it feels like there is a divine acceptance along with joy and a peace at heart. We seem to be in this life of trial and error, acceptable to people but not by God and vise versa. This is confusing cause you may think the good fruit of the situation is whether it is number of children you have or how massive your bank account is or how many gardens you have. But I think the real treasures are unseen and that stuff is very much a part of this world I think Joel Olsteen would say you have been blessed. And sure it might feel like a blessing at first but many of the tangible things in this world can draw you away from God. I like to ask myself am I doing what I am doing because all of these people accept me this way and therefore it is comfortable. I don't know I really don't but it is amazing to see all of the things people do and say just to get people to agree with them and gain some acceptance. I think everyone ends up wanting to understand how God accepts us and why. You can never seem to get enough from people. This seems like a never ending battle, maybe just for me but I think there are others out there who try to understand this acceptance that is just sitting there waiting for use to hold on to it.

Getting used to Grace

This has been on my mind for some time now and I just listened to a Sermon that talks about character development with children. We think that we deserve Grace "anything given to you by God that you don't deserve." Pride says "I deserve ______" I get so used to people being graceful to me and around us that I start to take it for granted. This is always shown by the classic girl who is spoiled by Dady and she gets everything she wants. She is so used to her Dads graceful giving that she gets used to it and eventually feels like she deserves it. I think this is so apparent in the rich and poor extremes. With the poor beggars on the street, some think they deserve your money. They get so used to people graciously giving them their hard earned money that begin to feel like it is expected and eventually that they deserve it. The enemy is clever in this way of turning Grace in to Pride. Its so close to a good thing but just a little twisted. I think this is really relevant when People raise their children. Its a hard thing because you want to give your kids everything but you have to raise them in this world not in the garden I think if we were in the Garden that would be fine to give them everything but since they live in a world of sin ruled by the enemy you have to constantly remind them of what the difference is and raise them accordingly. I think God Raises us in this way but perfectly, not in the Garden but in this world, he even raises us knowing what sins we are more susceptible to than others and with those in mind he shows us the way. I think this is the reason life seems to find a new beginning because over and over again we find the Grace that we got use to, the grace we distorted and God revels it to us with a fresh new pair of eyes. But only after we come to him. The bottle neck here seems to be the constant attack of the idea that "I derserve ______ " this will only separate us. More later as this thought is still developing.

Get that Faith out of the way!

To Be or Not to Be That is the question?

Be on Purpose. New developing thought I will update soon.

Reassurance in God

I think the ultimate reassurance comes from God but in no way that you can pin point and if you could you could never actually prove it was God. Hence, faith falls into place. This is somewhat frustrating at first because you never know if what you are experiencing is what everyone else is experiencing so time and time again we ask "is this so?" "Do you see me this way?" even if the person voiced exactly what you wanted you know deep down that they are only a person and can't truly define you because of their lack of perfection and cognitive knowledge of knowing how everyone in the world is compared to you. Please don't be confused with the context in which I am talking about here. I am talking about reassurance about something your are worried about. Not petty reassurance like "do I look good" or something trivial. More like sicknesses and personality types and who knows I have yet to discover all the ways this can manifest it self in a negative light. But it seems to be an issue of lack of faith and trust. I know many things come down to this but that is the bottleneck. If you do find out something is wrong maybe get second opinions not endless months of reassurance. I think bassed on the Linden method this is a very wise way to think and to live. Ultimately you can never get enough reassurance, so deep inside you must be selfishly seeking attention in some way that helps feed your thoughts about being insecure in some area in your life. I think I have found this to be an evil that can lead to many bad things and can only develop with many different fears, that could eventually turn into phobias and anxiety and eventually into depression. You would naturally think that telling people and getting this reassurance would be good and natural and I think it is, unless you take it to an extreme. So like anything else there is a balance and this balance is some how made by Gods divine abilities to communicate with us and set us back on track. Its funny when you think about a guy or a girl when they are trying to get to know each other and they both seek reassurance over and over and over again, its always annoying to the witnesses around but the individual just can't seem to feel the assurance. If you think about it you know people like this and you know or wish they would just believe and have faith that the other individual likes them and move on! instead of constantly seeking this reassurance. Reassurance seems to be a journey off the path out of the way to find knowledge which really isn't there. This, I am learning won't help you in faith or understanding. Thus we must trust and have Faith and find our reassurance in God.

Reassurance

Reassurance seems to be somewhat like an addiction to me. When I was younger I was always worried that I wasn't doing something right, especially in school. I remember my 7Th grade Science teacher taking me aside and telling me I worry to much. Over the years this only developed and has given me a driven motivation to to have knowledge. Unfortunately that worry led me down some bad paths and created some bad habits. We are to live by faith not by knowing, this is so important. I have to have faith that people love me I have to have faith that God knows what he is doing and is "All powerful". When I worry it is as if I am saying God doesn't have things in control it is a point of weakness in my faith. Reassurance plays a big role here because I have asked people and tried to relate to them with certain subjects so that I could feel reassured that this is the way life works and I find my answer and tell myself "I know" now I have knowledge of this now. Not to be confused with wisdom. Later that knowledge changed and I was back to square one trying to get reassurance for my new knowledge. This process is tiring and only leaves me with a broken and separated feeling from people because I can never get enough reassurance all I want is more, more more more. This loop of toil and pain and confusion leads me to faith. If I have faith that things work this way and that I mysteriously feel 100 percent reassured and the worry is gone the belief takes over and I think the truth in trust is righteous and good and so it takes over and washes the worries away, and that, brings us one step closer to Jesus.

BroKen

This was My word a couple of weeks ago. Broken I don't know if I mentioned this already but I believe I learn things one word at a time. These words seem to envelop my mind while I am constant learning about my relationship to God and how he can speak to me so simply. In Beautiful Mind John Nash is Broken, he lets his mind take him to a place where he eventually is seeing fake people. It seems that if we don't get caught up in physical sinful pleasures and tangeble sinful pleasures it will go straight to our heads. Like Nash we all at some time let our brains go and let it control us. A wise guy once told me its like you have this barking dog in your head and you constantly have to keep telling him to sit and shut up or just ignore him. Nashe's eventual solution in the movie is to ignore those people in his head. In this program I am doing called the Linden Method, this is one of the 9 pillars that helps people reset their memory. The whole Idea of memory is so abundantly amazing to me because you can really cause some damage to yourself by doing something repetitively and making memories after memories, eventually creating bad "habits." You Break yourself and yes people influence you but you break yourself no one else. I have notice that a lot of frustrated and depressed people like heavy heavy metal music. I came across it the other day and something stuck me. I could not think at all there was so much noise that it completely took hold of my sub conscience and I was baffled at how clear my conscience was. No wonder so many guys listen to that at work it completely demoleshes the subconscious with Noise. I think if you let your subconscious go wandering around and not constantly keeping up on it it will take advantage of you and break you. It will manifest in some way weather it is how you feel or how you act or what you think about people and places. It will rule your life if you let it. I love this movie because he decides to fight his subconscious every day. We should all be doing this as well. Fight the good fight! More on this later.

The soul purpose for this blog was inspired by a friend of mine "Shawn" encouraging me to write about my passion for what I like to call the Bottleneck to Jesus. Basically since I became a Christian all of my thoughts and perspectives have been transformed. There is a movie out called "Pie" where this guy gets obsessed with the letter 3.14. Over and over he finds this number everywhere I assume like the number 23 movie. My transformation has been one where I find the number "Jesus" in everything I see and look. I basically feel like I have been given this wisdom of understanding of how God uses things in our life to point to him. The "big" Idea behind the bottleneck Idea is that more often than not once my pride is set aside I can see God relating to me in a most peculiar way. Just by observing things people say and do and the nature around me I see many different examples of how God is working and how everything echos his perfectly sculpted timing . I also feel like week by week I have been given some words and I will attempt to blog those words as they come. Oddly enough my current word is "Broken". My hope is that the Ideas exspressed here don't lose their passion inside of me because I have simply wrote them down, typically this can seem to happen, its almost as if you tell 10 people a story and then your done telling that story due to lack of interest in yourself it being repetitious or just because enough people have heard it for me to feel satisfied with my telling of the story.